First March Entry

Guess what? I think this is it. I think I'm in love with a guy that is 20. I never fell in love or had a boyfriend before so these feelings are new to me. I'm trying my best to get closer him, but it's actually hard to because I barely ever see him during the school day. The thing that sucks out of all this is that I don't know what he thinks about me. I think he considers me annoying. The "Love" part of my life sucks. Either I like a guy that isn't interested in me or a guy that I'm not interested in likes me. Never was there a time in my life where I loved a guy that loved me and in my opinion, it's a really sad thing. In truth, I feel like crying even as I speak because of all this.